Thoughts

So this post is about me, haha, thinking out loud, really. Debriefing. Venting. Talking it out... I do this often with my best friend Brandi, do you? You all need a "Brandi" in your lives....we literally "think" so alike, it's often mind-boggling. And we love to "debrief" after any encounter or event!

Today was special person/grandparent's day/book fair/art show at the school where I teach. Whew. What a crazy, busy day. We had people all over the place, probably 600 visitors. Not to mention spring fever is abound in every child-and teacher! Almost all my kids had someone special to visit. For those who didn't, I was honored to be their "someone special" and sit at a little lunch table and chat with them.

Through the in-and-out of my, literally, revolving classroom door, I had 3 special "visitors" myself. (Here's where the "me" part comes in) The first was him (see previous posts...). I was amazingly calm. I am proud of myself!! We chatted just briefly and he spoke to some of my kids. It was nice and not overwhelming. He looked nice. (ugh) Then, his dad and his dad's wife came later. I was so happy to see these two people. I love them dearly! I was greeted with great big bear hugs!! They are two of the most down to earth, kind, loving, generous and funny people that I know. And, I miss them. They miss me, too...their words exactly. Whoa-again. (bonus pts. for asking me if I'd lost weight and telling me I looked so pretty!) I was blown away and overcome with sadness that I don't get to see them really, ever. I am so thankful that they choose to love me, still, no matter the circumstances. They are family to me, period. I will do anything for the all the children in that family. I love them all - with all my heart. And, I want the best for his son-always. And, will continue to work hard to make sure he gets the best of everything as long as I can... That precious little soul deserves the world!

Then, they all left, and I, well, wiped away a few tears...hopefully for the last time...

I miss them.